my page!
things i like
- lana del rey
- calico critters
- classic music
- history
- politics
favorite songs
- be like a woman
- drive
- young and beautiful
- ride
- blue jeans
fav interests
- spongebob
- magical girls
- old music
- tiny collections
- quiet & dark rooms
about me
i’m a sophomore. i made this to mess around and learn because i’m in a coding class and i wanted something that felt like mine, not a template. i like using my brain and actually thinking about things. i love my family. i play tennis. i like thrifting because we already have enough stuff, and it makes more sense to reuse what’s already here than keep buying new things. i’m into politics and i pay attention to what people say, what they don’t say, and how fast opinions change depending on who’s in the room. i’m always wearing my black beats. if i’m quiet, i’m either listening to something or thinking.
religon
i was raised catholic and baptized catholic, while my father is lutheran, and all of my grandparents are deeply religious, and sometimes i wish i were religious too because the idea of heaven sounds comforting, but i don’t believe in a soul and i don’t think there is anything supernatural about who i am; i believe my thoughts, personality, and sense of self come from environmental factors, genetics, and conditioning, though that conditioning never carried over into religion, and even so i still have strong morals that often resemble christian beliefs about right and wrong, yet i think i am my thoughts, neurons firing in specific patterns that create awareness and complex thinking, so consciousness feels biological rather than spiritual to me, and i don’t think i need a soul to be me because i already have my body and my mind, which together make up my identity and lived experience, and that is enough, which is also why i struggle to understand how reincarnation, like in hinduism, could work, since humans are the only animals capable of forming complex sentences and deep abstract thoughts, while other animals don’t have brains developed to that level, and our brains evolved to ask questions like how and why, which is part of why i think religion exists in the first place, because it offers answers to those questions and brings comfort, though i believe humans created god rather than god creating humans, and religion itself seems largely determined by where you are born and your cultural or ethnic background, especially because it helps people cope with the idea of death, and while i don’t want to ever stop thinking or being aware, if death truly is nothingness then i wouldn’t feel sadness because i wouldn’t feel anything at all, yet despite all of this i still find myself wishing i had some sense of spirituality.